Day 177

Confession: I have a complicated relationship with boundaries. If the stakes are clear I can put up boundaries, but if the stakes are ambiguous I push it down or over-explain, and that really wears me out.  Safety would swing me on a pendulum between crying alone or fighting too hard.

I was taught to analyze first and dissociate from my body. Now I’m learning to trust my body first and know what I feel is worth listening to, instead of listening to my head. This is teaching me a different kind of safety—a safety within myself that I can act on.

Sound of the day: Okay Kaya – Believe https://youtu.be/k2_pVYWvFgY?si=P5v99c7iaxbz7urQ