Day 312

Confession: I’ve left something, or come towards it, or both, I don’t know.

I’ve been in the same bedroom for over 3 years, which is the longest I’ve been in one place since I was 18, and I’ve been using a bed that isn’t mine with bedding that isn’t my own with pictures on the wall that I didn’t hang (but I don’t mind them).

It’s taken me over 3 years to get that desk, and buy a black duvet with black pillow cases and get the courage to go into a ladies backyard to buy a pothos plant (I used to have so many plants a lifetime ago).

I don’t feel settled here, but I’ve begun feeling okay to breathe. So much so that I’ve been working on a screenplay everyday—steadily and paced. A discipline that I’d say this 365 project has been training me for.

I think for the first time in my life I feel like a complete, visible person to myself.

Sound of the day: Yaz – Only You https://youtu.be/-H7MhAuofCM?si=0Pl5E2hVmyrBGJvF (this song came up for a scene I’m writing, and I can’t get it out of my head and you’ll have no idea what I’m talking about but it breaks my heart and mends my heart and I’ve been dancing to it for many days)