Day 349

Confession: I don’t really like watching films in the cinema. The experience is incredible and I wouldn’t want to never go, but I find it distracting.

Sometimes I feel bad about this. Sometimes I don’t mind. Sometimes I think about how much more special it is that I don’t go all the time.

Sometimes I wish I could experience how it was when it was a bigger deal.

Sometimes I think about what my films would do to a room full of people.  I also think about how some would benefit more alone in a room. I like both. 

And one day I’ll make something worthy of both. And I’ll stand in the same room as my heroes.

I want to say it here, to put it somewhere. It’ll happen. This isn’t a hobby or an interest. This is my survival.

Song of the day: Arvo Pärt – Berliner Messe, Kyrie  https://youtu.be/bqDP-pnbQGg?si=2dxngtcXGVWF5qce