Day 352

Confession: Tonight my friends and I watched the entire second season of Nathan Fielder’s The Rehearsal, and it broke me (for lack of a better term).

Aside from his insane gumption—which I deeply respect—it made me reevaluate how heavy a task it is.

I know the road I’m pursuing is only going to get harder from here, but it’s the ones who keep showing up over and over who get anywhere. This project is a desperate attempt to hold onto that.

I lose my grip constantly in a battle with myself over what I can and can’t do.  There are so many limitations and I’m no stranger to rehearsing.

I spend hours doing it to fill the space.

But in less than a month this project will be over and in the New Year I’ll take everything I’ve learned to start something bigger.

And maybe I’ll take a flying lesson or something while I’m at it, since I’m scared of planes (never been in one) and that pisses me off.

Sound of the day: Evanescence – Bring Me To Life https://youtu.be/3YxaaGgTQYM?si=cF2tfo0ffQh7dQyB (if you know, you know lol. I listened to this song on repeat in highschool)